Did God Lie To Me?

After my son’s first seizure, in the midst of fervent prayer, I heard God’s voice. He said Jake was, and I quote “ALREADY” healed.  I had the audacity to believe God, particularly when He confirmed it only moments later. But here we are,  4 seizures and one 4-day-ICU-stay later, and my son’s sickness remains. So, the obvious question is, “Did God lie to me?”


This is the question I’ve had to ask myself. Deep down I couldn’t possibly believe this to be true, but the question remained, “Did God lie to me?” After my son’s first seizure on Thanksgiving day, 2011, I spent several days in prayer and fasting. In the midst of this, I was on my knees crying out to God, repeating over and over again, “Lord, heal him. Heal my son. Heal Jake. Please, Please, Please, heal him.” And in the midst of that request, I heard God’s voice say:


To be sure I had truly heard God’s voice, I asked Him to confirm His word to me. I got up and began to walk out of the chapel and as I took two steps out the doors, my phone buzzed. It was a text from my stepfather, quoting Psalm 103:3 about God healing our diseases, and telling me he, too, had heard from God about Jake’s healing. So, I BELIEVED GOD’S PROMISE that Jake was ALREADY HEALED. We did not pursue a doctor. We did not keep a close eye on him.

Seven months later Jake had a second seizure. And I started to question God, for obvious reasons. During this time, a verse came to our attention:

“God is not a man, that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?”

–Numbers 23:19

truth or lie

After several days I regained some peace about the situation, and began trusting in God’s Word of healing again. Then, seven months later, he had a third seizure. This time I was not as phased as the second seizure. We were trusting in God’s Word of healing over Jake. But this time they prescribed Jake some medicine to treat the seizures. They also wrote a prescription for something that would stop a seizure immediately if one were to last too long. But we never filled them. God had spoken, and we were simply believing—fully believing Jake would NEVER have another seizure, as we had with each instance.

Then, one month later, he had a fourth seizure, but this one was followed by a second one that would not stop. And we had not filled the prescription for the medicine that would have stopped it, because we were believing in Jake’s healing. This led to the story I shared last week, which you can read here, with my son in a pediatric intensive care unit on a respirator.

So, as we waited in ICU for my son to wake up, God and I had a few words. Well, I had a lot of words—God had a few words. The first night my wife heard from God in the middle of the night. She heard that this would be Jake’s testimony rather than ours. The second night was my turn. I spent several hours praying in the middle of the ICU unit, even kneeling on a chair in the open area, crying out to God on behalf of Jake. Reminding God of his promise to me about Jake’s healing. Wondering why God used the word “already” when He spoke to me. And trying to trust Him without questioning, but at that point, I couldn’t help but ask: “GOD, DID YOU LIE TO ME?????”

In the middle of that night, God spoke to me again and—as He always does—calmed my doubts. This time I heard Him say:


I balled like a baby, and apologized for doubting. Then my prayer changed. The Lord’s Prayer challenges us to pray “Let your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.” Clearly Jake’s healing was already spoken in heaven, so I prayed for it to be done on earth as it was in heaven.

Over the next few days, God continued to calm our fears. My son slowly returned to full cognitive function, and through this ordeal, several friends have found restored faith in their Creator. For this we are truly grateful.

So, did God lie? Of course not. I just didn’t understand Him properly. In our limited understanding, we can never fully comprehend God. The healing did not come as we had expected, but it IS COMING. And we’re trusting now, as always, that it’s already here. We believe Jake will not suffer from another seizure ever again. So if you’ve found yourself asking the same question, instead of doubting, try believing.

Believe in a God who does not lie. Believe in a God who has your best interests in mind. Believe in a God who can, and does, perform the miraculous. Believe in a God who LOVES you. Believe in a God who…

is not a man, the he should lie,

nor the son of man that he should change his mind.

He speaks, and then He acts.

He promises, and then He fulfills.

Believe in a God whose ‘already’ might be your ‘not yet’.

Faith Quote

If you haven’t yet, you should read about my son’s testimony through this ordeal:
Words Fail, But Prayer Does Not

11 Replies to “Did God Lie To Me?”

  1. Your faith never ceases to amaze me. I found your blog looking for tips for my Wheel of Fortune Audition and I subscribed. I thank God for your son’s healing and I pray for many others to be drawn closer to God with your story. Be blessed (or continue to be 🙂 )

      • I made the first cut, but I kept calling letters that were already called. They gave me extra chances too. I was the most excited person in there so I’m sure I would have made it otherwise. I saw the guy that was sitting next me on there a couple of weeks ago. I’ll try again next year!

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  3. Could it be that the Lord sent the doctor’s and medications to you so that you might use them to aid in your son’s healing? After all, the wisdom and abilities the doctor’s possess come from God. Likewise the drugs that have been developed to be used in those situations only have come into existance through God’s gracious intervention into the lives of the scientists.

    Never sell short the many varied ways that the Lord brings healing to men. Keep trusting Him for healing, but keep in mind that your son’s healing and meeting your son’s needs until the healing comes are both supplied by a gracous loving and kind God.

    Lord bless you, you are in my prayers.

    • Thank you Rob. Yes, that is exactly where we currently sit. For the first bit, we felt like God would heal without the medication. When he didn’t, we are now trusting he is healing through the medication. And I totally agree, either way, the healing comes from God, and He alone gets the glory. Keep praying, We can certainly use it!

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